It's Been Uphill

For the last 10 weeks or so I have radically changed the way I live my life. I am on the road to healthier living and weight loss.

While I have surprisingly enjoyed it and have adapted well there are still things I want, crave. Chips....mmmmmmmmmmmm. I can admit I was addicted to junk food for a long time, more than a decade actually.

I am proud to say that I have lost 27 lbs and dropped 3 pant sizes and 2 shirt sizes. I am amazed. That is what keeps me going. Well, that and the GUESS jeans I promised myself when I meet my goal which I figure will be around May 2011.

Working It Out

Sometimes I find it hard to follow through with my goals. Not because I can't do them but because fear of failure sets in. And then some time later in my life I hear the words in my head "I should have....". It scares me because I want my design business to take off. I don't mean I want to be worldwide, I just want to do stuff locally for a while and think big later.

I wish I had more confidence in myself and could guide myself on the right path.

With my new goals I am going to push myself harder than I ever have before. I've been offered a phenomenal chance to be taught by a professional tailor and I know I can gain so much from it. I've decided I will contact him this week and see when we can arrange a time for my first lesson.

That will take a lot right the but I will do it.

He Makes Me Proud

For a few years I went through a phase where I almost couldn't be in the same room as my middle boy as we would bicker and I hated it. I missed my happy go lucky boy, I missed the kid that lived for sports and bike riding, I just plain missed my kid.

This was MY boy.

When my ex and I separated he was just about 5 months old and I got to enjoy him alone without an interference. I cried his first day of school even though 3 went before him and 1 after. Even through issues with his dad begging him to move in with him, he still stayed with me. Even when they tried to pretty much brain wash him into leaving and going there, he stayed. He loves his step dad a lot and I think that played a factor in him staying.

This past 3 months has been full of trials and tribulations for our family. My husband, literally our family's universe,had 2 strokes. When he was told he couldn't work we worried about money. This man-boy stepped up got a full time job and helped pay the bills. He does without to give to us.

Today, he bought a car because ours died four months ago and the money is just not there. He says it is OUR car. When I try to say I will give him money towards it, he refuses. I will pay half the insurance however. There are no ,ifs ands or buts about it.

But still he makes my heart swell with pride. I can't believe the man he is becoming. I can't believe the love.

But I do know - this it my BOY.

Love you J with all my heart -you will never know how much this has meant to us. ~Love Mom

One Year Plan

Last year in August I set goals for the upcoming year. I knew I wanted to get my business up and running. I wanted to launch my clothing line locally. I wanted to have an awesome fashion show. I wanted to promote my fledgling business.

None of that really happened and it upsets me.

While there are a few things that are beyond my control. other things I could have went ahead with and NOT procrastinated for months on end. I made excuses as to why I couldn't succeed.

And you know what?

I am tired of the bullshit. Tired of not believing in myself.

I can do this. I will do this in the up coming year AND I am adding in one more goal - To have 3 permanent clients in my alteration side of business.

Given I've been thrown for a few loops I am still here looking up and standing tall and that's all I need.

~Necessity is the mother of invention.~

Playing Catch Up

You may be wondering where I've been...I will catch you all up as best I can. Above is a picture of the Canadian Kitchen Queens. I got this idea from Tara over at Jimmy Choos and Tennis Shoes. This was our second event and we had a blast! It's so nice to have a group of ladies get together and eat, laugh and share life experiences! I can't wait for next months - it is our Summer Lovin' BBQ.


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On another more scary and sad note a week ago yesterday my hubby had a t i a(mini stroke) that had the kids and I calling 911, holding him down and waiting for the ambulance. It was the scariest 20 minutes of our lives (it took that long for him to be himself again) but a severe headache and other symptoms prompted the ER doctor to call it a t i a and admit him. He stayed in the hospital from then until Saturday morning. While there he quit smoking, we were educated HUGE on diabetes, stroke, blood pressure and chloesteral. We have changed our how eating style and it has bee quite ok. He misses his Pepsi but we have comprimised he can have a 1/2 can IF he exercises which he does. We bought bikes and have been bike riding. I have discovered muscles I haven't used in a long long time.

Anyhow, that's it for now. I just noticed the time and it is time to get ready for work and make lunches.

My Bad

I just realized it is Thursday and I forgot last weeks Freeing Friday. Well, I guess you will have to wait until tomorrow to see what I am freeing.

I had one of "those" weeks. The kind I dread. I know that three days this week I looked like crap which in turn made me feel like crap. It is true a little make up and hair done does wonder to the mental state. I was never much of a make up person but even the basics make me feel good. But enough of that on to some good.

Ms. K and Princess Chloe won a photo shoot and they are such beautiful girls! That is them up above. Aren't they beautiful?

I won't be spending Saturday night with my girl because our Kitchen Queens girls meet. I cannot wait. I need this night to regroup and have some girl talk.

Plus my Mom is coming for the night and I love spending time with her. It took a long time for that to happen. While I wish we had this relationship my whole life I completely relish in what we have. You can't change that past but the future is a different story. Besides, my Mom is pretty cool and I like being with her.

I know this was a mish mash of everything but it's Thursday and it's what I got!

Big Hair & Tutu's

I spent the better part of this morning making a tutu for Princess Chloe's photo shoot on Thursday. She is going to look adorable. I posted a picture of the finished product. However, I am going to research it and make another larger one for future dress up sessions. She is such a girlie girl. I brought her a pink fairy costume and she loved it. She was carrying it around and talking to it.

I have had a few down days but I am working hard to not let it get to me. Today I was playing with my hair and ended up with big hair. Flashback to the 80's! I wore it like that all day and no one said a word. I liked it.

That's all for today folks!